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Subject:space is not just a place for stars.
Time:08:54 pm

i don’t remember the colour of your eyes or the sound of your voice; i’ve been better for it. i’ve learned to control myself, and i haven’t cried over you yet; not that i haven’t in the past enough to justify never crying again over anything. if you were still around, i think you’d be proud of how well i’ve kept things together on the outside while they fell apart on the inside.
however, i am very angry with you. i’m angry that you aren’t even around for me to be angry with; that you haven’t spoken to me in months. i’m one bad day away from giving in to calling you. mostly i just thought i meant a little more to you than this.
i’m in a rut. for months, four months, i have been running in circles through my mind, jumping through imaginary hoops impressing no one. i’d even settle for a drug problem if it’d get me out of this house once in a while. i haven’t been reading books, or seeing new movies, or learning any new skills. my most recent accomplishment has been staying out of trouble.
someone save me from myself.

after this day it's this week all over again.

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